De Javu

The jihad was fighting in the way of Allah… The soldier must be ready to Jihad against the enemy in the war… The worker must be ready to Jihad for results that optimal… The student must be ready to Jihad to can understand… The father must be ready to Jihad formed the family that “sakinah”… The mother must be ready to Jihad educated his child with kind… So the shape of the jihad that reality….! Struggled for kindness… By Means Of that right… And in accordance with the situation and condition… What has heavent… The bombing cruel… Who the perpetratos was the person who considered himself… And that not the Jihad!!!!

When meeting you... I apparently liked you... In fact... You standart… Not charming… Also not sweet… But... U are interesting... How the way u talk... How the way u respons... Made me interest... Maybe this is love... Also maybe just temperory feel... All just maybe... The possibilitiy because curious... Because unknowledge... That will be the assurance... if u give me that answer.

Ketika bertemu denganmu… Aku sepertinya suka padamu… Padahal… Kamu biasa saja… Tak menawan… Manispun tidak… Tapi… Kamu menarik… Caramu bicara… Caramu menanggapi… Buatku tertarik… Mungkin ini cinta… Mungkin juga hanya sekedar rasa sesaat… Semua serba mungkin… Kemungkinan karena penasaran… Karena ketidaktahuan… Yang akan menjadi kepastian… Apabila kamu, beri aku jawaban.

Be reminded at the time… During together the best friend… was felt beauty… Really mean it… Remembered them… Mutual time shoulders liked and sadness… Really… The warm still… in the niche … I really missing that… Could not be replaced… Now… The time has changed… Responsibility already not to alone… The Demand of the life not only just for… Destiny has different… But… Even did not like before… We always continue to one heart… Continue To mutually love… Remind this… The Gathering must not with meet each other… Despite missing… Really previously indeed could not backward… Despite with the time machine… My friend, My Brother… The Bad Memory… Must not forgotten… Because…… That it’s for us to understand… Would the meaning of the friendship and brotherhood… That was established by us with time.

Teringat waktu lalu… Saat bersama sahabat… Bersama saudara… Terasa indah… Sangat berarti… Ingatkah kalian… Canda tawa kita… Tangis sedih dan bahagia… Saling bahu kala suka dan duka… Sungguh… Kehangatan itu masih terasa… Didalam relung nurani… Kurindukan… Tak dapat tergantikan… Kini… Masa telah berganti… Tanggung jawab sudah bukan untuk sendiri… Tuntutan hidup bukan hanya tuk sekedar… Jalan hidup telah berbeda… Tapi… Walau tak seperti dulu… Kita tetaplah sehati… Tetap saling asih… Ingatlah… Kebersamaan tak harus dengan bertemu… Meskipun rindu… Masa dulu memang tak bisa kembali… Meskipun dengan mesin waktu… Sahabatku, saudaraku… Kenangan buruk… Tak harus dilupakan… Karena…… Itulah yang buat kita memahami… Akan arti persahabatan dan persaudaraan… Yang telah kita jalin bersama waktu.

The age was the parameter... The parameter that has been standard... Could not be changed or was removed... Also could not be stopped... By the quantity will continue to improve... By the quality will continue to decrease... When increased the age... Will be increasingly mature... In thinking... Was current... And have an attitude... However many adults... That could not be better... In thinking... Was current... And have an attitude... Did not change... Even more serious!!! One certain... Definitely will change...!!! When be older... Skin was wrinkled... The backward eyes also plus... Black hair faded became white... Teeth gone step by step... The sturdy road to stand began to be bent ... So the life panorama... Could not in ignored.

Usia adalah parameter... Parameter yang sudah baku... Tak bisa dirubah ataupun dihapus... Tak bisa pula dihentikan... Secara kuantitas akan terus bertambah... Secara kualitas akan terus berkurang... Katanya semakin bertambah usia... Akan semakin dewasa... Dalam berfikir... Berlaku... dan bersikap... Namun banyak orang dewasa... Yang tak bisa lebih baik... Dalam berfikir... Berlaku... dan bersikap... Tak berubah... Malah lebih parah!!! Satu yang pasti... pasti akan berubah... Ketika... Kulit kerut tak bisa terhapus... Mata minus tambah pula plus... Rambut hitam memudar menjadi putih... Gigi merapuh dan bertanggalan ... Jalan tegap berdiri mulai bungkuk tertatih... Itulah panorama kehidupan... Tak bisa di abaikan.

The hope like dream Hope was The wish… That for humankind survive… Humankind had a great hope… Hope to happyness… Satisfaction… The enjoyment… Sometimes hope became the reality.. Sometimes also only to shadow… Sometimes the shape of hope was felt sweet… Sometimes also bitter… When alone hoped a lover… When not alone hope searched replacement… During did not have, want to have… During had, bored came... There were also those who are bored hoping… because never come real… Miserable without the power… Posses without word… All that reality… Where not all produced a honey… must sincere struggled for reached… Sincere accepted anything the result… Although operational being difficult… but has become compulsory… as a person... the creation Of The GOD.

Harapan itu seperti impian… Harapan adalah keinginan… Yang buat manusia bertahan… Manusia punya banyak sekali harapan… Harapan untuk kebahagian… Kepuasan… Kenikmatan… Kadang harapan menjadi kenyataan.. Kadang pula hanya sekedar menjadi bayangan… Kadang wujud harapan terasa manis… Kadang pula pahit… Dikala sendiri berharap seorang kekasih… Kala tak sendiri berharap mencari pengganti… Saat tak punya ingin punya… Saat punya, bosan melanda… Ada pula yang jenuh berharap… Karena tak kunjung nyata… Merana tanpa daya… Termenung tanpa kata… Semua itu realita kehidupan… Dimana tak semua hasilkan madu… Harus ikhlas berjuang tuk menggapainya… Ikhlas menerima apapun hasilnya… Walau sulit dijalankan… Tapi sudah menjadi keharusan… Sebagai seorang insan… Ciptaan Tuhan.

You smiled... Why? .... I did not know.... (replied you) I was frightened of revealing what I feel that... For instance... I possibly fell in love... But I was frightened of this feeling... I was frightened restless this... I was frightened of my fear... Let... Your feeling flowed... Frightened that was humane... Struggled... To gain what was wanted by you... Prayed ... So that that was undergone by you and faced...

Kamu tersenyum... Kenapa ?.... Aku tak tahu.... ( jawabmu) Aku takut ungkapkan apa yang kurasa... Katakanlah ... Aku mungkin jatuh cinta... Tapi aku takut dengan rasa ini... Aku takut resah ini... Aku takut dengan ketakutanku ini... Biarkanlah ... Rasamu itu mengalir... Takut itu manusiawi... Berjuanglah ... Untuk meraih apa yang kamu inginkan... Berdo'alah ... Agar yang kamu jalani dan hadapi... Diridhoi oleh Tuhan yang Maha Kuasa... Amin...

There was the bomb again!!!! The explosion sounded in the morning!!! Humankind with the blood clothes was sprawled... The scream was hurt and the fear... What appropriate humankind died like that... During breakfast... During all already plan today... When being not ready to die!!! The death indeed could not be suspected… And could come anytime… And only Gods that decisive. Not by humankind!!! Pain my heart it seems... Saw the cruelty like that happened... Disappointed and was not finished thought... Why must be repeated again... Cruel and not humane... Oh lord... Give your guidance... Be not enough the world law... Consiously them... Be not enough the death sentence... Washed clean his mistake... Be not enough the blood flood and crying... For their heart touched... And did not repeat again... The lord... We the slave you... Excused himself and beg to you... Show your Power... Open their good side that uptil now was shackled... Amen...

Ada bom lagi!!!! Ledakan membahana dipagi hari!!! Manusia berbaju darah bergelimpangan... Jeritan kesakitan dan ketakutan... Apa pantas manusia mati seperti itu... Saat sarapan pagi... Saat semua sudah terencana hari ini ... Saat tak siap untuk mati!!! Kematian memang tak bisa diduga… Dan bisa datang kapan saja… Dan hanya Tuhan yang menentukanya. Bukan oleh manusia!!! Perih dihati rasanya... Melihat kekejaman seperti itu terjadi... Kecewa dan tak habis pikir... Kenapa harus terulang lagi... Kejam dan tak manusiawi... Ya Tuhan... Berilah petunjukmu... Tak cukup hukum dunia... Sadarkannya ... Tak cukup hukuman mati... Mencuci bersih kesalahannya... Tak cukup banjir darah dan tangis... Buat hati mereka terenyuh... dan tak ulangi lagi... Tuhan... Kami hamba-Mu... Bermohon dan bermunajat pada-Mu... Tunjukkan Kuasa-Mu... Bukakan sisi baik mereka yang selama ini terbelenggu... Amin...

Are you regretted? .... Moreover me… but all already heavent… Let it… That important you realize… What that to mistake… Calm down… I definitely will be responsible… was not possible i leave u… should not continue that u think… Make this some lesson… To better in future… Now … Previously tidy u'r clothes... U'r hair… And removed u'r tear… With my handkerchief… Come On we restart again… was bought by us the newspaper tomorrow… Who knew was that adjust… prepared all with smart… Type with tydy… put the envelope and sent through the post or tiki… was waiting and be patient… definitely will have the call in several day… Just remember … Never had the same mistake for twice… underwent what must faced… Strengthen u'r heart and prepared u'r self… the Struggle for the life not only to here.

Kamu menyesal ?.... Apalagi aku… Tapi semua sudah terjadi… Sudahlah … Yang penting engkau menyadari… Apa yang menjadi kesalahan… Tenanglah … Aku pasti akan bertanggung jawab… Tidak mungkin engkau kutinggalkan… Jangan terus kau pikirkan… Jadikan ini suatu pelajaran… Untuk lebih baik dimasa depan… Sekarang … Rapikan dulu pakaianmu… Sisir rambutmu… Dan hapus air matamu… Dengan saputanganku… Ayo kita mulai lagi… Kita beli koran besok pagi… Siapa tahu ada yang sesuai… Siapkan semua dengan teliti… Ketik dengan rapi… Masukkan amplop dan kirim lewat pos atau tiki… Tunggu dan sabarlah… Pasti akan ada panggilan dalam beberapa hari… Ingatlah … Jangan sampai ada kesalahan sama untuk kedua kali… Jalani apa yang harus dijalani… Tekadkan dihati dan siapkan diri… Perjuangan hidup tak hanya sampai disini.

Tadinya akan kamu mulai hari ini... Rencananya memang hari ini... Niatnyapun hari ini... Tapi... Gak jadi... Kenapa sih kamu menundanya? Masih ada esok katamu... Yakinkah kamu? .......... (terdiam) Aku yakin karena besok itu pasti ada... Setelah besokpun masih ada lusa... Jadi kenapa aku harus gak yakin? .......... (terdiam) .......... (sama-sama terdiam)

When you did something…. That was first think about what the profit? About what the loss? Why that often crossed? Still is there the sincerity? In did action… You know… What as a result too much calculation… Not the profit that you can get… the Loss and regret that can feel… Really poor… You know… Not all the actions were measured was based on the profit and loss… Sometimes you help because of heart words … Spontaneity of "nurani"… was nature humanity… everbody know… Sincere was not easy to approve… Always coloured of gray… Sincere or not are u… Only GOD that knew.

Saat kau melakukan sesuatu…. Yang pertamo tepeker untungnyo apo? Ruginyo apo? Ngapo itu yang galak telintas? Masih ado dak keikhlasan? Dan ketulusan? Dalam ngelakuke tindakan… Kau tau… Apo akibatnyo terlalu perhitungan… Bukannyo untung yang kau dapatke… Kerugian dan penyesalan yang kau rasoke… Kesian nian ye… Kau tau… Idak segalo tindakan diukur berdasarke untung dan rugi… Ada kalanyo kau tu nolong karno kato hati… Spontanitas nurani… Adalah kodrat insani… Galonyo tau… Ikhlas dan tulus tu idak mudah untuk berlaku… Selalu warnanyo abu-abu… Ikhlas atau idakkah kau… Hanya Allah yang tahu.

Ketika ikak berbuat sesuatu…. Yang pertame tepiker untungnya ape? Rugi’e ape? Ngape itu yang sering terlintas? Agik adekah keikhlasan? Dan ketulusan? Dalam melakukan tindakan… Ka tau… Ape akibatnya terlalu perhitungan… Bukan’e untung yang ka dapetkan… Kerugian dan penyesalan yang terase… Kesian bener ok… Ka tau… Dak semue tindakan diukur berdasarkan untung dan rugi… Ade kalae ikak nolong karna kate hati… Spontanitas nurani… Adalah kodrat insani… Semuen tau… Ikhlas dan tulus dak mudah untuk berlaku… Selalu warna’e abu-abu… Ikhlas atau dakkah ikak… Hanya Allah yang tahu.

Ketika awakmu ngelakoni sesuatu…. sing pertama terpikir untunge opo? Rugie opo? lapo iku sing sering terlintas? Sek ono gak keikhlasan? Dan ketulusan? Dalam ngelakoni tindakan… Awakmu ro… opo akibate terlalu perhitungan… Bukanne bati sing koen oleh… Kerugian dan penyesalan sing dirasakno… Sak no e… Awakmu ro… Gak kabeh tindakan diukur berdasarkan untung dan rugi… Ono saate koen nolong berdasarkan opo jare hati… Spontanitas teko nurani… Adalah kodrat insani… Kabeh ro… Ikhlas dan tulus gak gampang untuk berlaku… Selalu wernoe abu-abu… Ikhlas atau gakkah awakmu… Hanya Gusti Allah yang tahu.

Ketika kamu berbuat sesuatu…. Yang pertama terpikir untungnya apa? Ruginya apa? Kenapa itu yang sering terlintas? Masih adakah keikhlasan? Dan ketulusan? Dalam melakukan tindakan… Kamu tahu… Apa akibatnya terlalu perhitungan… Bukannya untung yang kamu dapatkan… Kerugian dan penyesalan yang dirasakan… Sungguh kasihan… Kamu tahu… Tidak semua tindakan diukur berdasarkan untung dan rugi… Ada kalanya kamu menolong karena kata hati… Spontanitas nurani… Adalah kodrat insani… Semua tahu… Ikhlas dan tulus tidak mudah untuk berlaku… Selalu berwarna abu-abu… Ikhlas atau tidakkah kamu… Hanya Tuhan yang tahu.

Occasionally my heart was happy.... Occasionally also my heart was sad... Such was lived this... Was full of nuances but not just like the colour... Only was black and white... Could promise mutually... However was not... Such was lived this... Have an appointment that was not kept... And that was exceded... Regained consciousness would time... But also often forgotten... Such was lived this... Be full of the change... Must have preparations... Would was reached?? All the hopes that were wanted?? Make parents and relatives happy... Make relatives happy around... Possibly the hard work and was not easy to interrupt the hope... As well as time and The GOD Fate... That became the determination.

Honesty... It were a purity of the human being of the heart expression... The lie.... It were a hypocrisy... Doubt.... It was an uncertainty... But... Sometimes honesty was not significant... The lie that was chosen.... Doubt also to was praised.... Destroy the hope that was blessed...

Her decision already clear! Has been round... You not her choice! Her wish has been planted strong... Already the determination... You should not be disappointed! She tried to be able to be always consistent... With all of her decisions... She tried to always become the consistent person... With all of her consideration... Let! Let it go! Received..... Sometimes no 2 indeed... It would be better if!!!

Kamu itu...... Dia itu.... Anda itu.... Ente itu.... U itu.... Terus,,,,,,,? Aku mana? semuanya itu... . Baiklah untukmu ini.... semuanya ini untukmu.... Tapi.....? Ini tak sama dengan itu.... Aku kepingin itu!!!! Aku tak mau ini!!! Diamlah Kuberi tahu padamu.... Tak semua sama..... Memang harus ada ini dan itu.... Terimalah..... Syukurilah.... dan Tawaqallah...